Hypochondria, flashbacks and other things that happen to me.

I've always been a bit of a hypochondriac and the fact that I'm a biologist doesn't improve things, it's not that I'm usually ill or even sick, but as soon as I start feeling something weird on my body I completely freak out (when I say freak out it means start looking on Pubmed, once I even checked OMIM to see if there was a genetic basis for some of the illnesses in my family). And I know this is not healthy but in the end, there's nothing wrong with me. So why am I telling all this to you? Not only to point out that I've a medical condition for which I should actually seek help (ok, it's not that bad), it's because lately I've been having flashbacks and it feels really weird.

Have you ever had a flashback? I mean a real one, when you are doing something completely unrelated and suddenly you see something that happened some time ago. This is been happening to me, maybe I'm reading a paper or just talking to some friends and BAM I can see at some kind of detail something of my past, the funny thing it's that these flashbacks are always about places I've been, a street in Berlin, a church in Montréal, another street in Montréal. I don't know it's really strange, it's kinda like something that happened to me some time ago, but then I was doing something and then a story would come to my mind so I had to stop doing whatever I was doing and write. I know it's different but I guess that since now I've got so many things to think about when my brain need to relax instead of inventing some plot it just fires these pictures, but still it feels weird because they have special feelings linked to them. Luckily they are happy feelings, although I really miss Montréal and each time I get a flashback I want to go back, but I hope this kinda stops in here because I don't think I'll be able to handle it.

Another thing that happened to me the other day was that I was trying to sleep and I realized that I was singing two songs at the same time (of course not out loud, just in my mind), this made me think that maybe I'm getting to much brain stimulation and that I need some holidays. Still I know that I will never be able to stop thinking, I think I've never been able to stop thinking, you know like when they tell you to relax and stop thinking about anything, I just can't I start thinking about why I'm doing that and then I jump to another thing and finally I'm just so focused on whatever I am thinking that I'm actually more stressed out than I was before. Ok, back to what I was saying... two songs at the same time? I think that was way weirder than flashbacks.