Who is Bianca?

The house was silent, devoid of the music Alan used to play. Bianca had dated him for five years, that was their shared home. Or used to be, rather, as he had left her two weeks before. Alan was an aspiring rock musician, and a pretty good one. He spent most of his time rehearsing and composing, and the remaining one listening to other music. There was always music in the house. Bianca never cared much about music. Not until she started dating Alan when she started following him to all the concerts. She even picked up the bass guitar, to a limited success. 

The silence throbbed Bianca, but she didn't put on any music, it didn't feel right, it wasn't what she needed. She sat on the sofa and stared at the case of her bass picking dust in a corner. She thought of Alan and of all her ex-boyfriends. Bianca had been convinced that Alan was the one, although deep down she knew that that feeling arised from the fear of dying alone rather than from love. Before him it had been Hector. 

Hector's had been a short relationship, they dated for six months before Bianca met Alan. He was passionate about sports and an avid runner. Bianca started running thanks to him. Her running shoes lied abandoned at the bottom of her wardrobe, untouched for five years. 

During her college years, she had dated Lon. They spent most of it together, her majoring on PR, him on Film Making. He would take her at every screening, gift her movie packs at any occasion. Bianca cherished them, and would gladly discuss about the technical details and the actors performances after watching them. She gave all the DVDs to her friends when they broke up. 

Her first love had been Najib. They started as friends when they were thirteen. Najib was extremely intelligent, a book lover. One could always find him in the library, his face buried in a book. He became her boyfriend in a natural way, just like the river flows. Bianca spent lots of hours in the library during her high-school years, and would regularly visit the town's bookstores in search for reading for Najib, who was too poor to be able to buy books. They broke up before going to college, Najib was going to one of the most prestigious universities that happened to be across the country, and none of them was made for a long-distance relationship. 

It was then when Bianca realized that she had always adapted to her significant others, that she didn't know who she was? Was she the bookish, the film-nut, the sporty or the rockstar Bianca? Was she any of them? Was she truly anyone?