Drown

The room was warm even in the early morning Zsuzsanna woke up sweating, not only from the heat but from the nightmare she just had. She couldn't remember anything about it, but she knew it was a bad dream. Upset she got out of bed doing her best not to wake up Ida, got dressed and headed to the beach for a quick morning swim. That was what she loved the most of living by the sea, being able to go whenever she wanted, specially during early mornings. The water was cold and the salt stung on the mosquito bites from the night before. She dove under the waves and swam for half an hour, when she went back to the beach she felt renewed, with no trace of the nightmare. 

Ida was already up when Zsuzanna returned. She had prepared coffee and breakfast. Zsuzsanna kissed her cheek and headed to the shower. Her girlfriend still hadn't started breakfast when she got out of the bathroom wrapped with a towel. 

-Aren't you hungry?- she asked unwrapping the towel to use it to dry her hair. 

-Zsu,... 

Zsuzsanna didn't like that tone. 

-What?- she asked crossing her arms over her bare breasts. 

-I'm leaving. This is over. When you come back from work there won't be anything left of me in here. 

-Why? 

-I don't love you anymore. 

So, that was it. Zsuzsanna ate her breakfast, got dressed, and left, all in silence. She couldn't bear to talk to Ida anymore, her heart cracked in two. Work didn't go much better, with her having to skip lunch trying to save a dying project and leaving late, frustrated and exhausted. 

On her way home she realized something; she had only been happy in one moment during the whole day, and it had been when she was swimming. She headed to the beach straight from work, left her bag on the beach and stripped from her clothes, leaving a trail of them on the sand. She walked into the water until her head wasn't above the water anymore. That was where she belonged. She let all the air out of her lungs and welcomed in the rush of water, letting herself drown, letting herself stay in her happy place.