The sound of the bells woke her up. It was time for midnight prayer, her favorite. However, she felt uneasy, impure, even. She had just been having a dream. An erotic dream. Sor Chastity felt mortified by those, she had felt the calling at a very young age, and at her thirties she was still a virgin and bound to die as one. Yet, she has been having those dreams for a couple of months, at first she tried to fight them with penitence, but when she saw it didn't work, she gave up and started sneaking into the bathroom to placate her desire. She felt terribly guilty, and terribly sinful. She had committed her life to God, yet she was sinning every day. She knew that her sin felt so good because Satan was tempting her, dragging her to hell. But hell was there, hell was her life. One day, she decided to confess everything to the Mother Superior.
-Mother, I have sinned.- Sor Chastity told her superior.
-What have you done, child?
-I have experienced lust, and I have placated my desires while the other sisters were away.
-You have to be strong. You have to punish yourself for every impure thought, for every action.
-I have done, mother, but I keep dreaming and those dreams make me sin.
-Dreams are dreams.
-But they feel so real!
-You need to work harder and punish yourself harder. Go with God.- the mother superior dismissed her.
Sor Chastity did as she was told, she worked fifteen hours a day, she starved and deprived herself from sleep, yet she kept having those dreams. It was always the same, Sor Benedicta would get inside her bed and start caressing her and kissing her, and after that they would do sinful things. Even if she was hardly sleeping she kept having the dream. She was feeling trapped, and one day she saw what her only escape was.
When the nuns went back to their dorm they found Sor Chastity hanging from the ceiling, her face purple and her tongue out. All of them were horrified and ran to tell the Mother Superior. All but Sor Benedicta who stayed in place looking at the corpse.
-Too bad, you were a good plaything.- she whispered.
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